'Furlough' - a word many of us wouldn't be familiar with if you asked this time last year. But now, we've become very familiar with it.
I was part time furloughed in November and December. I worked in the mornings, so I was lucky to have some structure, and something to get me up in the morning. I was also very lucky that the Charity I work for topped up the furlough, so I didn't lose out on any money.
It was quite a mixed experience and it certainly brought on a wide range of emotions (but hey, that's pandemic life for you right?!). Although we were told that the furlough wasn't personal, I did worry that I would be forgotten about, and not needed. My charity also has redundancies coming up, so I did worry that if I could be managed without on furlough, that my job could be more at risk.
I also felt guilty that I had time off, when others were managing childcare and their full working hours. I felt pressure to be making the most of the time, and it felt like a weird situation to be in, and that I wouldn't be in it again, having this much paid time off, but with little going on to be able to do in it...but that was the reason why you were off in the first place!
I do feel it made sense for my workplace to make use of furlough, as a charity who is already trying to save money. People's reactions were interesting, I had a few 'oh I'd love to have some time off' but it's not all it's cracked up to be. It's difficult sometimes to have so much time alone with your thoughts, with few distractions. I also thought, 'Well I'd like to be indispensable' but I had to keep reminding myself it wasn't personal.
What I did with my time
I tried to get out of the house when I could, and I got my steps up most days. This was also before lockdown so I could still meet a friend for a walk. I also tried to focus on my freelance work, and did a few bits for my church, and some friends' businesses. I also tried to have a good sort out of my stuff so I didn't get overwhelmed when I was busier. Due to the time I was furloughed, I was also able to get organised for Christmas. And of course there was plenty of baking and making!
Overall...
Overall, my experience of furlough was ok. As I've said, I realise I'm lucky that I still worked half my hours, that I didn't lose out on any money and I wasn't on furlough for long. It also took away the guilt of sometimes not being as productive at work, I only had a few hours a day to work with, so I got accustomed to being realistic about what I could get done in the time. I also got stricter with my work routine, as I had to finish at a certain time, so I couldn't work any longer.
What do you think about furlough? Have you been on furlough? How did you find it?